4000 Miles Away

Had a busy day today..and among all things, i went to church..and just as i expected, it stayed exactli the same as the last time i had gone. The atmosphere was still very relaxed, and the people were still very nice..and morning tea consisted of orange cordial and square biscuits coated in sugar, just like before. It was a realli warm day today, though the sun was hidden by the clouds. Mi mind was turned off, but similar thoughts drifted in and out of mi mind. I wonder what the next month will hold..but i guess all i can do is wait and see haha.

I also realised that i was practicalli uncontactable all the time..whether i want to be or not. i found mi phone in mi mum's bag at around 6 in the evening and found that i missed a few calls..and now that mi phone is found, the battery is almost dead lol.

Today was kind of bad..more pointless arguments with mi mum, which kind of left me in an irritable mood, however, something always cleared mi mind.

I think i'll start carrying my camera out more, just so that mi blog will be a bit more interesting, haha. paintball for the darrens' birthdays tomoro, dam. imma needa wake up earli..


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Holidays

So far, this holiday has been..very eventful..some parts were realli gud, and some parts not so gud..so i guess when you put everything into a pot and give it a gud mix, what comes out is just "eventful".

It sounds a bit strange at first when i say that i onli realli felt my age 10 days after my 18th birthday, but that's because that was the day we held our (fionna, bevis and mine) "celebration"..and it was a day i considered more special than my birthday.. The event was dinner at Blackbird cafe at cockle bay wharf with about 70 people and a 900 dollar bar tab..after hours of organising (especially for fionna), everything turned out well and i thought it was realli fun, just for description's sake it felt kind of like having dinner at a club and everybody just drank, ate dinner, had a chat and listened to music. Bevis drank until he could no longer hear what you said to him and began responding to everything with "im alright guys, i'm alright" hahaha. After sending Bevis home, some of us went to a club while some others went to darling harbour to play pool. Having stayed out too late, we took a taxi to hurstville and i brought kevin, darren and wong back to mi house where they could get some sleep. i think 'memorable' would be the best way to describe that day..it was the day i bought my first drink, and went to mi first club..it was the first time i'd been drunk, and had to sit outside to recover..it was the first time i'd been to sculpture by the sea, and to saturday glebe markets..and a death/heavy metal shop. Sometimes i wonder if there'd be a chance that i could do it all again..but i guess it'd never be the same

The next big event for me was our year 12 formal in the ballroom at the grace hotel in town hall. Darren and Kevin came to mi house where we got ready beforehand, tools included a hairstraightener and a half a kilo can of hairspray. Despite the not so gud DJ and the lack of dessert (and those rocket leaves)..i know it's a night i'd have a nostalgic moment about..i guess something about night time and friends in suits and dresses made it seem a bit like a dream. And with the exception of a glass slipper, it kind of reminded me of cinderella, everything finishing at midnight and all. After coming back upstairs for the last song of the night, we went into the hotel room and sipped shots and ate mcnuggets. After stepping out and napping at a net cafe while kevin, darren and wong played dota then having breakfast at pancakes and laughing at books in a bookstore, i went home to sleep for the rest of the day (having onli had one hour of sleep that night).

It feels kind of weird actualli, now that formal is over..it kind of reminds me of graduation day, knowing that there were people there with me that night that i may never see again..or at least not in the same way..so i guess its 'new chapter' all over again

No Direction

It feels like i've lost direction. Days drag by slowly, filled with unsubstantial activities that were determined the night before. Plans are made, and then compromised. My mind grows tired when surrounded by uncertainty..the fact that it's past 2am may also have some contribution. So in order to regain some purpose in my "post-hsc" life, this post will just be a mind dump in hope that if i can see my thoughts physically on an internet page, i might be able to arrange them into some kind of plan. Here goes.

-write a resume (which means looking for example resumes and digging up past info =/)
-find a job..asd;lfjk
-learn to drive..(115 hours to go =__=)
-prep. lesson notes for chem
-buy bday presents (3 - jdd)
-excercise
-watch news (so as to not live under a rock)
-blog more (left the most difficult to last..)

so i've finalli gotten around to making that list..its not as long as it was when i first started this entry, though thats because all the planned events have since passed, like Blackbird and Formal (though i think i'll talk about those in a separate entry). Just for record's sake, today is the 20th Nov, and it is 11:17 pm.

New Chapter

It was the weirdest feeling, filling in my birth date on the front of the physics examination booklet as todays date, my last exam. Its such a strage coincidence that almost every single birthday wish i received made reference to it O__.

Thinking back to regular school days, i was hit with a massive amount of distance, here i am, living the moment that i thought would never come..the other side of the hsc. On one hand, i feel a little hesitant, suddenli being able to do anything i want to do, and on the other hand it feels exciting that i can finalli chase everything i've wanted to chase.

I havent taken advantage of my coming of age yet, that is, other than taking a few sips of XO which my dad diluted with coke incase it was too strong =p

The thought of receiving results still strikes fear in my heart though thats been pushed to the back of mi mind, and i still feel the feetprint of guilt as I procrastinated in the enormous amount of free time i sudenli had. Haha, old habits die hard.

Have to cut this short cos i need to sleep, still have to sign out of school tomoro..

Gud luck to everyone who still has exams to do =]

i think i will play basketball tomoro.