Umat results were released today..and they were somewhat disappointing..=/ the first thought that entered my head was how ridiculous it was that this one test was worth as much as yur entire hsc..and that a difference of just two points could mean the difference between getting an interview and not. Oh wells..i guess fairs fair as thats how it is for everybody lol.. but it means that i need an atar of 99 to get an interview..as;dklfj I talked to K on the phone today to see how he went, and found that he'd lost motivation for med..it felt realli weird to hear it cos we've been chasing this since year 11..but i guess the gud thing about being young is that we have so much opportunity =] ..you've got my support bro, kick some commerce ass!!!
Haha, guess what? after all this time the first thing i blog about is school again..i think i should change the topic before you all fall asleep..
Waking up this morning to find that the sky had turned orange, i thought i was still in a dream..lol until somebody informed me that i wasn't and that it was a dust storm. So, watching it for a while, i thought it was kind of pretty..until i walked outside. There was so much wind that even the birds couldnt fly properly lol, holding my fringe down i cannot help but lol as i could think of at least one other person who disliked the wind for this same reason.
(Duststorms..once in a blue moon..ahahaha i am so funny =D)
It feels kind of..retarded, knowing that school is about to end (haha, couldnt think of any other way to describe it)..the prospect of not being bound by a routine is kind of exciting, but at the same time its a little bit scary because we'll no longer have people to make our decisions for us, and because we'll lose what ties us most strongly to our friends. Taking the 'day off school' *ahem*, we went to the state library to do some work..it turned out to be more fun than i thought it'd be lol, with all the picture taking and everything with B's new camera. R brought us to a $14 japanese buffet where you have an hour to eat as much (pretty and..uh..tasty) food as you can, and after asianly eating our money's worth of prawns, we decided to eat ALL the jelly they had on the dessert table and build a tower with the packaging..quite innovative lol.
but ANYWAYS, hsc is so close ARG!!!! NEED TO STUDY. will blog again soon. i didnt say that. lol.
Finally finished trials today..it feels different to what i expected, not as grand as i thought it'd be. L told me its just cos i have noone to celebrate it with lol. maybe. i feel like im missing something..but i cant figure out what exactli. trials were..harder than i expected..hopefulli i did okay in them..=/ i shall wait and find out. but in the mean time, gud luck to all the economics people who still have an exam tomoro =].
lol i just realised something..that i realli realli miss msn..a;sdlfjk
I had a dream two days ago, i dreamt that i was at dr du and that they gave me a sheet of paper, like the term reports we get, and on the piece of paper was whether you submitted homework each week and also the reason why you didnt (the ones we write on the hw slips). I remember reading the first two lines and it said homework: not submitted. reason: FACEBOOK. next to the first two weeks..lol, and i remember feeling freaked out at how they knew..and that thought woke me up.
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Lifes so full of change, it gets a bit crazy sometimes. I guess what everyone needs is just something sane and constant to hold fast onto to get them through.
Thoughts are with you, one with family troubles (if thats the right words)..i hope you guys cope well..just remember yur not alone man, and that wont change.
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a;slkfj too much stuff on mi mind..maybe imma just improvise as i go..i cbf to plan anymore
Things are picking up momentum as trials draw near for us from Caringbah...first exams are none other than ENGLISH..my worst subject. And both english exams being back to back (monday tuesday) means that not only must i memorise four essays and a creative piece (not to mention being able to adapt them), but that also leaves me around about zero time to study for both 4 AND 3 unit math exams (week one trials also). ARG A;SLDFJK. English is getting to my head...
but anyways..i didnt go to school today, but went to the library instead..and the weird thing is that whenever i feel like going to the library, alice, gina and bevis are there also lol, it must be some kind of sensitivity from too much hanging out at the library together it was..different to what i planned for..which was a whole day of studying lol, we ended up immersed in conversation instead, and that was realli fun..and something i hadnt done for a long time, it reminded me of lots of things i'd forgotten about since the hsc started, like the dreams of living a taiwanese/korean drama where the stars have all the time in the world to fall in love and where everything works out in the end (yes, i was KINDA into dramas for a short time XD [*embarassed*] and jay chou and fahrenheit and the like), so i guess the hsc realli was a massive reality check and kicked all that out..
lol i wonder if it'll all be worth it. no computer games, no driving, no girls, no sport, antisocial. BUT on the flip side, lots of gud things have happened too..lol, like valuing friendships a lot more in year 12 than you've ever done and stuff like that
how strange..everytime i post a blog, it still makes me feel..vulnerable =/ i guess sharing emotions is just not natural for me.. must be something to do with bein an ISTJ..lol
STUDY UP PEOPLES. 2 MONTHS LEFT OF HIGH SCHOOL. year 12s the year to chase your dreams.. and everything else can be made up for later. hopefulli..
was going to blog last night..but it got a bit late when i finished doing my essay and i posted this song instead..=D
so i've finally completed my share of assessments for this year today..yayy, so now its full steam ahead onto trials, graduation and then the hsc.. i dont know whether to feel happy, worried or sad =/
though it feels gud that assessments are done, the essay i produced today has to be the shiz-est essay i've ever written in my life..but by the look of it, not many people were very well prepared..so hopefulli its not too bad..=[
haha, its gud to know we're all in the same boat..zzz
confirmed that i cant talk properli today..blaming on hsc.. lol, actualli, come to think of it i think the onli place i go now that is outside of home and a tutoring centre is the library..but even thats rare now compared to before a;sldfkj ARG
note to self: make time for talking/hanging out with friends etc..things disappear if you dont pay attention..
i found out something lols today, that at harry's i've been sitting in front of a girl who went to my first primary school and was IN MY CLASS FOR YEARS..it took a minute for me to remember sitting next to her in year 2..lol, guess what..as always..it was my name that distinguished me a;sdlfjk
which reminds me of the day i got my name..i even had a say in the matter..but thats another story. not reali. cbf lol
(Duststorms..once in a blue moon..ahahaha i am so funny =D)
