lolll..indulging in another angst-venting blog..
had time to reflect today..which is something i dont do very often.
I thought about lots of stuff i would have done differentli if i had the chance to..for example all the times that i've said something wrong or did something i wasnt supposed to, and all the times that i've pissed people off or seemed stubborn and self righteous...if i could do everything again, im sure i could have saved lots of people a lot of trouble, hostility and the like.. but now that everythings done, it cant be undone =/..so i guess, the onli thing i can change is wat i will do in the future..
lol, blah blah right? worlds not all about me haha. XD
but anyways..lol. got our math test back today =/ asian failed againnn
it feels nice..to just drown in rnb.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Friday, June 26, 2009
Colour Day
Today was colour day =D
now, for those who dont know wat that means, it was the day where we dress up in clothes of our year 7 class colours, and play games in the hall.
heres one picture thats been put on facebook..imma sure there be lots mroe though haha
YELLOW PRIDE. (go us!)
although we lost all the tug-o-wars =/..we won a sexy pencil for best costumes overall =D
nostalgia is so strange..if i was to describe as a mixture of emotion, i'd say it was a mixture of happiness and sadness..
but anyways..lol, look how big 7 yellow are now ;ASLDKFJ. all grown up >=D
now, for those who dont know wat that means, it was the day where we dress up in clothes of our year 7 class colours, and play games in the hall.
heres one picture thats been put on facebook..imma sure there be lots mroe though haha
YELLOW PRIDE. (go us!)
although we lost all the tug-o-wars =/..we won a sexy pencil for best costumes overall =D
nostalgia is so strange..if i was to describe as a mixture of emotion, i'd say it was a mixture of happiness and sadness..
but anyways..lol, look how big 7 yellow are now ;ASLDKFJ. all grown up >=D
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Flashback.
Got my hands stuck in some teenage drama today. Not feeling gud. Got told that im arrogant, imposing and always told people what to do.
Im not writing this post to justify myself. People who realli know me can form their own opinion. The reason why im writin this is because i've learned something, as always after conflict. lol..for example, that i shouldnt push mi own opinions too far no matter how sure i am about them, so imma sorri about that..if those peopl are readin this...just know that i had gud intentions, yer..? And the other thing is that bros are a lot more loyal and forgiving than girls, who are temperamental and hold grudges for extended periods of time (at least, at our school).
hifive guys...<3
Another thing i was told was that i could not possibly be close to a friend because i've onli realli started talking to him a year and a half ago, and that when highschool finishes i would forget all about highschool friends.
I dont know about that..but what went through mi mind was that you sounded realli insecure, like yur always bracing for pain and ready incase yur friends leave you any second..its not true. or at least, i dont think so..
but anyways, you could decide that for yurself. if you ever even see this. lol.
So in echoing my now non existent post, i now remember why i left all the drama behind in the first place, its so childish. but hey, i learnt something right? lols.. i think i prefer being calm and slow..i mean..collected =P
Im not writing this post to justify myself. People who realli know me can form their own opinion. The reason why im writin this is because i've learned something, as always after conflict. lol..for example, that i shouldnt push mi own opinions too far no matter how sure i am about them, so imma sorri about that..if those peopl are readin this...just know that i had gud intentions, yer..? And the other thing is that bros are a lot more loyal and forgiving than girls, who are temperamental and hold grudges for extended periods of time (at least, at our school).
hifive guys...<3
Another thing i was told was that i could not possibly be close to a friend because i've onli realli started talking to him a year and a half ago, and that when highschool finishes i would forget all about highschool friends.
I dont know about that..but what went through mi mind was that you sounded realli insecure, like yur always bracing for pain and ready incase yur friends leave you any second..its not true. or at least, i dont think so..
but anyways, you could decide that for yurself. if you ever even see this. lol.
So in echoing my now non existent post, i now remember why i left all the drama behind in the first place, its so childish. but hey, i learnt something right? lols.. i think i prefer being calm and slow..i mean..collected =P
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Cute Song.
A song i got from sombedy last year, i dunno why i like it so much haha <3. its so cute. XD.
the mv cant be embedded so yer..lol.. but i dont like the mv much anyways..alicia keys wiggles too much
..yes imma aware that it is a chick song..and the writing is pink.. so no gay jokes =___=
theres lots of covers for this song for peopls who dont like pop lol
the mv cant be embedded so yer..lol.. but i dont like the mv much anyways..alicia keys wiggles too much
..yes imma aware that it is a chick song..and the writing is pink.. so no gay jokes =___=
theres lots of covers for this song for peopls who dont like pop lol
Sunday, June 14, 2009
What I think about teenage relationships.
lol..i see so many people who are depressed about 'love' and all their relationship troubles..it all kinda reminds me of year 10, when most of our group all found 'love' at the same time, and people formed pairs, and sometimes threes and the whole thing caused a lot of emoness afterwards. lol. but thats not the point. the point is, that everyone learned a lot from that. or at least i did anyway. (+ it was realli fun) but anyway, heres wat we (after spending many saturdays with kevin in the library talking about life/girls and doing homework at the same time haha + listen to rnb...) learned from it.
that liking somebody wasnt as bad/detrimental as our asiany parents make it out to be, but its actualli realli fun and you find out a lot about yurself too..and its nice to know that somebody thinks yur awesome =D and hearts spending time with you.
but anyways, more to the point, teenage relationships come and go and there isnt onli one person yur 'destined' to be with. lol. theres loads. but they cant be found until you grow older.
so what is the point of teenage relationships you might say? maybe i should just wait? nah. lol. the point of them is that theyre fun and you find out a lot about yurself. FUN. so for all the emo people i know, dont fall in too deep with one girl or one guy and get too obsessed, eg. like someone for years and years and get depressed if they dont like you back. "if you put yur heart out to someone and they still dont like you, then theyre not worth it." <-- thats what my bestfriend said to me. lol. it was the most important thing i learned in year 10. not 3D trigonometry.
o yer, one more thing that i thought of in year 10. 'liking' someone isnt realli a feeling. more like a decision. like, you could be 'interested' in people and like talking to them, but once you decide that you 'like' someone you cant stop thinking about them/imagine a perfect life with them and then feel depressed that you cant have it, and life turns into a taiwanese drama...but there may or may not be a happi ending where the main characters realise they love each other =[.
lol, but anyways, that was all very long ago. imma pretty sure most of the group got over the 'cant live without you' stage. but yes, year 10 was realli fun. so was year 11. i dont even want to imagine not knowing all the people i met since coming to caringbah.. <3 (imma not gay btw guys.)
how did i start thinking of this? cos i was listening to music, and then some songs came up which reminded me of last year and the year before..lol, yes bits of memory gets trapped in songs.
and thats the end of my 'rant'. not about hsc surprisingly.
...=D
ps. i hope all the diehard 'love' fans dont start sending me hatemail.. =/
actuali.. imma not against it lol, if that wasnt clear. its the best thing ever...
sometimes it gets out of proportion though ..and comsumes yur whole world.
that liking somebody wasnt as bad/detrimental as our asiany parents make it out to be, but its actualli realli fun and you find out a lot about yurself too..and its nice to know that somebody thinks yur awesome =D and hearts spending time with you.
but anyways, more to the point, teenage relationships come and go and there isnt onli one person yur 'destined' to be with. lol. theres loads. but they cant be found until you grow older.
so what is the point of teenage relationships you might say? maybe i should just wait? nah. lol. the point of them is that theyre fun and you find out a lot about yurself. FUN. so for all the emo people i know, dont fall in too deep with one girl or one guy and get too obsessed, eg. like someone for years and years and get depressed if they dont like you back. "if you put yur heart out to someone and they still dont like you, then theyre not worth it." <-- thats what my bestfriend said to me. lol. it was the most important thing i learned in year 10. not 3D trigonometry.
o yer, one more thing that i thought of in year 10. 'liking' someone isnt realli a feeling. more like a decision. like, you could be 'interested' in people and like talking to them, but once you decide that you 'like' someone you cant stop thinking about them/imagine a perfect life with them and then feel depressed that you cant have it, and life turns into a taiwanese drama...but there may or may not be a happi ending where the main characters realise they love each other =[.
lol, but anyways, that was all very long ago. imma pretty sure most of the group got over the 'cant live without you' stage. but yes, year 10 was realli fun. so was year 11. i dont even want to imagine not knowing all the people i met since coming to caringbah.. <3 (imma not gay btw guys.)
how did i start thinking of this? cos i was listening to music, and then some songs came up which reminded me of last year and the year before..lol, yes bits of memory gets trapped in songs.
and thats the end of my 'rant'. not about hsc surprisingly.
...=D
ps. i hope all the diehard 'love' fans dont start sending me hatemail.. =/
actuali.. imma not against it lol, if that wasnt clear. its the best thing ever...
sometimes it gets out of proportion though ..and comsumes yur whole world.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Thinking out loud.
got home from burwood harry tutoring about 2 hours ago...failed the quiz lol =[
i just read brendons blog lol...yur stressing about hsc too...=[ its k man, lol. same boat. hifive. haha.
i like the photos btw lol...forgot how fun it was before hsc..too bad we dont have many photos of our group though =[..we realli need a person who takes lots of photos in our group, i cant believe we dont have one! i'd do it, if i had a digital camera. lol. shutup.
but anyways, here are some side effects from the hsc that i've noticed:
- Conversation making is down the drain...cant look people in the eye and hold conversation at the same time. FUK.
- In more serious cases, a tendency to forget nouns...eg. "hey gina, thats a nice...wait..hoodie!" [dammit!]
-Uncontrolled hsc bloggage O__. and/or all i talk about is school
-Inabillity to feel emotions...sorri if i sound bored all the time guys =[ im not actuali lol
-Increased tardedness...and thinking slowly...and cant put a sentence together properli..and taking ages to blog
but anyways. on a completely different note. i noticed wong now reads my blogs too? lol yay. well i hope you find them interesting. haha. and ive noticed something weird...well not exactli. weirds not the right word, but anyways lol. i thought that by starting a blog, i could write down everything that happens to me...and exactli how i feel about different situations/people/stuff in general, and maybe find out something about myself in the process, and be able to judge my own personatlity from an outside point of view...but the more i write, the more i feel like i cant open up and just bleed everything onto the page cos..well, cos other people might read it.. O__. lol..
how...contradictory?
but it sounds like it happens for everyone though.. everyones blogs are so mysterious, and full of emotions and fun to read, lol. it always seems like people are so full of stuff they want to say, but cant..incase a particular person reads it and finds something out..
lol, but i guess..even though i cant actualli say much here...its still a gud way to think out loud, well..out..written. typed. wateva. and say lols stuff i might not say anywhere else.
for example, stuff like, wow, the sky is realli starry tonight, or some rant about something (probli hsc...lol).
ps. still no pictures..=/ i cant find any lol. we srsli need a photo taker. no srsli.
...someone PLEASE.
i just read brendons blog lol...yur stressing about hsc too...=[ its k man, lol. same boat. hifive. haha.
i like the photos btw lol...forgot how fun it was before hsc..too bad we dont have many photos of our group though =[..we realli need a person who takes lots of photos in our group, i cant believe we dont have one! i'd do it, if i had a digital camera. lol. shutup.
but anyways, here are some side effects from the hsc that i've noticed:
- Conversation making is down the drain...cant look people in the eye and hold conversation at the same time. FUK.
- In more serious cases, a tendency to forget nouns...eg. "hey gina, thats a nice...wait..hoodie!" [dammit!]
-Uncontrolled hsc bloggage O__. and/or all i talk about is school
-Inabillity to feel emotions...sorri if i sound bored all the time guys =[ im not actuali lol
-Increased tardedness...and thinking slowly...and cant put a sentence together properli..and taking ages to blog
but anyways. on a completely different note. i noticed wong now reads my blogs too? lol yay. well i hope you find them interesting. haha. and ive noticed something weird...well not exactli. weirds not the right word, but anyways lol. i thought that by starting a blog, i could write down everything that happens to me...and exactli how i feel about different situations/people/stuff in general, and maybe find out something about myself in the process, and be able to judge my own personatlity from an outside point of view...but the more i write, the more i feel like i cant open up and just bleed everything onto the page cos..well, cos other people might read it.. O__. lol..
how...contradictory?
but it sounds like it happens for everyone though.. everyones blogs are so mysterious, and full of emotions and fun to read, lol. it always seems like people are so full of stuff they want to say, but cant..incase a particular person reads it and finds something out..
lol, but i guess..even though i cant actualli say much here...its still a gud way to think out loud, well..out..written. typed. wateva. and say lols stuff i might not say anywhere else.
for example, stuff like, wow, the sky is realli starry tonight, or some rant about something (probli hsc...lol).
ps. still no pictures..=/ i cant find any lol. we srsli need a photo taker. no srsli.
...someone PLEASE.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
End of the world. Not really.
YES finally finished my physics homework.. at 2am lols..
this is going to be a boring entry btww.. haha..just felt like unloading all my teenage angstage in a blog entry.. so anyway, boring read lol.
but here goes.
feeling under prepared for exams..which are suddenly next week. trials and hsc exams are so close too, and whats even scarier is that the hours fly by so quickli.. got home from burwood at 8.30 today, and from then till now, all i've done is physics hw...which was supposed to take 20 minutes as;ldkfj ..X[
its not just today too, more like EVERy day..which makes me think that maybe getting into med is just a pie in the sky.. FUK. why dont i just study you might think? i duno..theres always so much. even after a solid day's worth of work, at the end you still realise theres a long way to go until imma gud enough.. how demoralising. then theres UMAT, suddenly thats only a little more than a month away, and i havent even started lookin at practice questions. ARGH. i look around and see so many people who deserve a fantastic uai because theyve put in so much work. but imma stil stuck in apathy. but i cant realli blame anything i guess..its all on me anyways. i just hope i dont disappoint..lol. dats it. have to tank this. >=/.
lol..i wonder wat i'd be like if mi mum made me read books or something instead of do maths wen i was little. then i wouldnt take so long to write blogs haha. english has gone down the drain this year. cant even speak properli anymore as;ldfkj like if i tried to speak too fast mi tongue gets caught and jibberish comes out.. =/, and turned completely antisocial too lol, soz guys.. since deleting msn and all. haha, used to be realli fun, talking for the whole night on msn XD. o wells. year 12 is kinda fun i have to admit. even though its all just been studyin. no girls. friends kinda distant. no going out too much. no internet practically. cant wait till formal..
post-hsc sounds so fun. too bad so many people are going overseas though. lol. hsc. cant wait.
bored? yah i know.. lol. and yes, the whole worlds not about me and hsc is not the end of the world. but kinda seems like it right now.
but anyways, lol. went to library today, with a tarded person, which reminded me of the holidays XD. too bad it was so full though.. had to sit on opposite sides of the room =/
miss days when it felt like there was all the time in the world to do random stuff..
haha, heres a lols conversation at math tutoring:
Harry: The chinese economy is developing at a breakneck speed.
Fionna: Wat!? we dont have a break next week!?
bahahaha =D
edit: sorri for lack of pictures btw. might start to include some lol
this is going to be a boring entry btww.. haha..just felt like unloading all my teenage angstage in a blog entry.. so anyway, boring read lol.
but here goes.
feeling under prepared for exams..which are suddenly next week. trials and hsc exams are so close too, and whats even scarier is that the hours fly by so quickli.. got home from burwood at 8.30 today, and from then till now, all i've done is physics hw...which was supposed to take 20 minutes as;ldkfj ..X[
its not just today too, more like EVERy day..which makes me think that maybe getting into med is just a pie in the sky.. FUK. why dont i just study you might think? i duno..theres always so much. even after a solid day's worth of work, at the end you still realise theres a long way to go until imma gud enough.. how demoralising. then theres UMAT, suddenly thats only a little more than a month away, and i havent even started lookin at practice questions. ARGH. i look around and see so many people who deserve a fantastic uai because theyve put in so much work. but imma stil stuck in apathy. but i cant realli blame anything i guess..its all on me anyways. i just hope i dont disappoint..lol. dats it. have to tank this. >=/.
lol..i wonder wat i'd be like if mi mum made me read books or something instead of do maths wen i was little. then i wouldnt take so long to write blogs haha. english has gone down the drain this year. cant even speak properli anymore as;ldfkj like if i tried to speak too fast mi tongue gets caught and jibberish comes out.. =/, and turned completely antisocial too lol, soz guys.. since deleting msn and all. haha, used to be realli fun, talking for the whole night on msn XD. o wells. year 12 is kinda fun i have to admit. even though its all just been studyin. no girls. friends kinda distant. no going out too much. no internet practically. cant wait till formal..
post-hsc sounds so fun. too bad so many people are going overseas though. lol. hsc. cant wait.
bored? yah i know.. lol. and yes, the whole worlds not about me and hsc is not the end of the world. but kinda seems like it right now.
but anyways, lol. went to library today, with a tarded person, which reminded me of the holidays XD. too bad it was so full though.. had to sit on opposite sides of the room =/
miss days when it felt like there was all the time in the world to do random stuff..
haha, heres a lols conversation at math tutoring:
Harry: The chinese economy is developing at a breakneck speed.
Fionna: Wat!? we dont have a break next week!?
bahahaha =D
edit: sorri for lack of pictures btw. might start to include some lol
Friday, June 5, 2009
Midnight Blogging
Holi, havent blogged for such a long time..ish..well since last week. lol. haha
Exams are coming up again in about a week and a half. FUK. and we only just got our half yearly reports back
lolll, failed english.. =[
asian fail physics and maths =/
spent almost a whole week preparing a module B essay, hopefulli its not too bad..had to change it SOmuch
AS;LFJK the first time i handed it in to the teacher, her reaction was basically, '...dude, this is shiz.'
ANYWAYS. lol. enough about school O__. ?
transformers 2 coming out. have to see that. and angels and demons too..still havent got around to it lol. too much work ;asldkfj. have to kick certain peopls asses haha
o YER, long weekend this week. looking forward to it..though imma just go library or soemthing lol. do some maths...imean...be cool =D
lol..how cool am i? best way of spending a long weekend..
..XD
there was something else i wanted to say..but i cant remember it =/
lack of sleep probli haha
okies imma go sleep..holi, took 30 minutes to write that
Exams are coming up again in about a week and a half. FUK. and we only just got our half yearly reports back
lolll, failed english.. =[
asian fail physics and maths =/
spent almost a whole week preparing a module B essay, hopefulli its not too bad..had to change it SOmuch
AS;LFJK the first time i handed it in to the teacher, her reaction was basically, '...dude, this is shiz.'
ANYWAYS. lol. enough about school O__. ?
transformers 2 coming out. have to see that. and angels and demons too..still havent got around to it lol. too much work ;asldkfj. have to kick certain peopls asses haha
o YER, long weekend this week. looking forward to it..though imma just go library or soemthing lol. do some maths...imean...be cool =D
lol..how cool am i? best way of spending a long weekend..
..XD
there was something else i wanted to say..but i cant remember it =/
lack of sleep probli haha
okies imma go sleep..holi, took 30 minutes to write that
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